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Who: Fifi, Shu, Meg, Partners?
What: Their love will bring the world crashing down
When: Feb 15th, evening
Where: Poyi Mountains

Heavy.

The first thought that slid through Fifi's mind as it surfaced from the swirling darkness was that she felt very heavy. She had sunk into something because it was clinging to her skin and clothes.

She was cold...and her face twitched as a drop of water fell onto her cheek cold and hard enough to feel like a pebble that exploded upon contact.

Another, and then another. Little pips of rock hard water peppering her face until her eyes snapped open.

Her mind clawed through the fog desperately as she closed her eyes again to protect from the abrasive water. Her first thought was to be grateful she wasn't as wicked a witch as the one from Oz or she'd be melting a horrible death right now.

Death...

That word brought her memories back in a tidal wave that crashed into her and would have knocked her off her feet if she wasn't already laying on her back. The fight, the panic. A sacrifice, pain and then numbness and then more pain. People...Meg and Shu screaming...

Her eyes snapped open again and dry lips parted to whisper "Shu."

A shot of adrenaline hit her heart and lit up her body like she'd been struck my lightning. She sat up sharply her body making a wet sucking noise as the suction of the mud tried to keep her down. Her eyes wildly scanning the area as the rain continued to pitter patter down irregularly.

She saw...trees. Too may trees too closely together to see for any great distance. A trench had appeared in the mud where she had been laying, sinking and now it was filling up with rainwater.

She felt a sharp pain in her stomach and doubled over arms wrapped around herself shuddering at the sharpness of it. A cold sweat broke out on her supple tender skin and was quickly mingled with the unforgiving rain.

"Shu." She whimpered tears squeezing out from her closed eyes. "Shuuuuuuu!" the second one sounded like a whine. Her eyes opened again and she gulped in some crisp air.

Her powers were at an all time low. She was practically mortal and it was more then she could stand. So she shoved those thoughts aside and took stock of the area. Trees, rocks...and an egg.

Her eyes settled on the egg instinctively knowing who's it was. She had no regret for her minion. Only disappointment that he wouldn't be of use to her in this new situation. Maybe he would be more agreeable in his next life.

A rumbling thunder warned that to remain out in the open was a fools plan and begrudgingly Fifi began to shift her body out of the mud and to her knees. The her hands and knees, then slowly, wobbly and weak to her feet. It was like watching a newborn deer try to stand.

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Shuensha glared at Megaera, scowling at her defiance, cold eyes judging her.

"Enlighten me."

"Because, with the injury she's suffered, Tiffany was very likely to go into shock. Even with my healing - which by the way was painful to use - another hit from one of those things would have killed her. And as a result, me."

Megaera's tone was icy, and she matched Shu's gaze unhesitantly.

"So you left." Shu finished for her, brisk and sharp, like the crunch of fresh snow and just as cold.

"Would you have rathered that we died?"

Megera's annoyance was obviously growing stronger, and quickly, given how testy her words were becoming.

"Don't be stupid." Shuensha's tone matched Megaeras in annoyance.

"Really? You seem very annoyed at my reasoning, as if I should have put me and Tiffany's immediate safety before continuing to fight. I think it very clear that we left because we had to - and because there was not more we could do."

"I'm sure Meggy did exactly what she thought was needed."

Shuensha was scowling in a way reminiscent of a cat bearing it's fangs threateningly.

"Would you have preferred I put myself and Fifi at greater risk to ask your opinion, then?", Megaera asked. "Is our taking initiative that anger-inducing to you?"

Shuensha refused to speak to Megaera again, instead she turned her cruel gaze back to Fifi.

Fifi had been incapacitated by the conflicting emotions of the two girls and her own swirling about in her chest like a tsunami. Finally when Shu's eyes found her she burst out "FIFI Didn't want to die!" Tears streaming down the once perfect fave, "Fifi was afraid of leaving her Shu forever! A fate worse then hell itself! Fifi didn't want to leave Shu! never Never never wants to leave Shu! If it had been up to Fifi..." She paused to catch her breath as the panic attack started to set in again.

"F-fifi would have trusted Shu t-to keep her safe." She whimpered and cringed as if awaiting a fresh blow to her heart.

Megaera felt Fifi's sadness - her emotions exploding in sadness - but kept her focus on Shu.

"... Shuensha? Is it worth it?"

Shuensha seemed to find it painful to look at Fifi during her confession and so turned away.

"What are you talking about?"

"Is it worth having reduced her to this for little to no purpose? To have made it so she's become so dependent on your approval that it's literally making real harm she's suffered worse? Worse - that she's become so dependent on your approval that it could put her very sense of self at risk?"

"Do you want an answer? Or have you already decided one and your response to it?"

"Would I ask if I didn't want one?"

"What does it matter?"

"In part because of where it's wound up... And what it could do to her mind. In part because I'm worried about what it means for you. In part out of worry what it means for me."

"Your concern for my wellfare is certainly new, considering your abandonment of me on the battlefield and your abduction of my possession." Shu practically hissed at Meg.

"Would you rather your 'possession' - never mind the problems with referring to her as such - be dead?"

Surprisingly, for as testy as Megaera was getting, she kept her tone relatively even here.

"Are you saying I would be incapable of defending my own things?"

"In the middle of something like that - should you have to? Never mind my issues with your referring to her as such - the most practical choice I could make, with what I knew at that time, was to ensure you did not have to worry about her."

“That’s a total fabrication! How could I-“ She suddenly bit her tongue and looked down at Fifi with what could only be described as contempt before facing Megaera again, practically forcing the words from her mouth.

“How could I not be concerned? Whilst she’s on the verge of death you use magic more powerful than yourselves. Then you take her away before I’m aware of the outcome, unaware if she’s even alive let alone your location. How is that productive for me during a battle? How does that ensure my mind will be calmed and without worry? Or are you just a simpleton?”

Fifi (Who had till this point remained silent broken only by the occasional whimper and tremble actually seemed soothed by this argument. She blinked away tears and turned on Meg. "Meg did not consult Fifi either on if she wanted to leave her Shu's side."

Turning back to Shu with a softer, submissive voice, "Fifi loves her Shu, and would never do anything to upset Shu on purpose." Hanging her head and assuming a surprisingly traditional bow on her knees a shiver of regret passed through her. "Fifi is sorry that she worried Shu. And that she is so...emotional right now." She choked back a sob as the feelings of inadequacy and weakness began to creep in again. She felt tiny. Like a bug in mud. Unworthy of her Shu.

At least the walls didn't feel like they were choking her anymore.

Megaera paused.

"... I will accept fault for failure to signal you before making my exit. But not for the choice to make the exit itself. Nor for not allowing Tiffany to make what would assuredly have been a suicidal choice."

"I could have taken care of it."